Yesterday was 120 days sober. It’s been easier this time around because I’m doing it for myself, and not for somebody else. I should’ve known it was destined to fail a couple of years ago, mainly because I wasn’t “ready to let the party end”. In the past 4 months, I’ve played shows, gone out, hung at friends houses, hit the bars to watch football/baseball, basically just lived life like I did before, and haven’t had one single itch to have a drink.
I have noticed that I am getting annoyed much easier when I’m at a friend’s house and I’m the only one not drinking. I’ve also noticed I’m getting a little annoyed at how much my s/o drinks. Maybe it’s just now getting noticed since I’m not doing it with her, but it’s definitely something that needs addressed….as well as about a million other things.
I’ve worked out once in the past month, and that has me bumming a little. I’ve been stressed over my car situation (which is now handled), the money situation that happened due to the car situation, band practice 3 times a week, with 3 different bands is wearing on me, and dealing with the shit-show that was our vacation is really getting to me…even though it’s been over a month since we got back.
Need to get my mind right, and get back to working out. I felt great, physically and mentally when I was following a regular schedule. I guess I never realized how much of a release it was.